My own fairy tale.

I want what every other girl wants. No matter if we are 5 or 50... We want a fairy tale that involves us being the key. We want someone to love and protect us. We want to swoon over a boy because of how kind and gentle he is. It's something that Disney told us when we were little and almost every other story we have heard growing up supports that. Of course, there are those of us in a different mindset... I want a fairy tale. But I want to be part of the action.

I want to fall in love everyday because of the trials of life. I want to get through all the fights and hard days with my heart growing fonder of someone. I want to be in the middle of a war zone, holding hands with a man that is loving and supporting me. I want to live the kind of romance that makes others think about what they want out of a lover, a best friend, a partner.

I have been thinking a lot this last week about my past relationships and why they ended... if I knew the reasons then or not. Looking back, most of them ended because I was treated like I had no say or grounds. I was there for the boy to show off. I was just a girl and nothing more. I know that I am not only the princess but a warrior. And I need to be treated as such. I need someone who will stand by me and for me. Someone who will treat me with respect and kindness and love and trust. I need a man who will like the fact that I am stubborn and I don't back down easy.

I have been having a hard time with the fact that a lot of girls my age are getting married and starting families and I can barely take care of myself. But it's not the fact that they are getting married... It's that they have someone who completes them and makes them happy. The fact that there is no fear or doubts in the relationship they are in. They know where they are heading and they are excited about it. I want that. I want to be able to look inside my heart and know, with no hesitation, that I am going the right way with the right person.

But it's just something that we have to wait for. For those perfect words or the one moment where you know you can't let go... not because you need the person with you but because you want them forever.