Another night.

I'm doing really bad at this whole blogging and having something to say everyday. There are so many things that I want to talk about... but I'm kinda at a pause in my life. I don't want to push things to far. I feel like I have this little box I need to stay in to keep everyone safe and happy.
My life... is confusing and crazy and fun and wild. I'm full of surprises and never seem to stop. I think life should be full of love and new experiences. I try and learn something everyday. If it's about myself or how the world works or anything. Right now I'm working on me. I'm trying to figure out what I want to be doing. Where I want to be and how I get there. I have amazing people in my life right now, helping me to those points, but I can't lean on them all the time. I need to figure myself out.
I decided that this was the year I would take to get myself in line. To try things I have always wanted to do, do things I was to scared to do and not hold back. I'm still working on that... I started this for my birthday, so it's only been a couple weeks. I feel like I am doing pretty well.

Tomorrow is my dads birthday party. He is 50. An amazing age to reach. And we will be hanging out with the family. Food, balloons, decorations, cake and a race. With people I love. It should be a good day. And I'm sure tomorrow I will be feeling less off and I will break out of this little box I am in. And something profound will come pouring out onto these pages.