Not a long rant...

I am so ready for this little one to come into the world! Being pregnant is great, I love feeling Ryder moving and kicking. Sometimes it's the only way I can relax. Just sitting with my hands on my belly, my eyes closed. But I know that I will have the same feeling when I'm holding him in my arms just looking at him.

Baby shower next weekend, I hope I get the rest of the things I need. I don't need any of the big stuff. So I'm excited. I am also happy that I get to see my family and friends all together for a bit. I washed and put away Ryders clothes today. Which is just mean because I want him here with me, wearing them, NOW! But I still have 9 weeks till I am a full 40 weeks. I'm hoping he is just a little early so I can see him sooner. I'm not really good at the whole waiting thing :]

Spring Break

Always one time of the year that I get excited for... this year, it's a little different. Going down to California with my family. Driving. Hanging out heading home. The only thing about it that will be different, I'm going to be about 30 weeks pregnant. Can't really lay in the sun all day. I will have to take lots of breaks. Driving down there will be a little hard. I think we are heading to Disneyland for a day or two... and I can only ride half the rides. But mostly right now... my big worry is what I'm going to wear. Lol.

Not a big fan of cleavage... And right now no matter what kind of tank top or swim suit I wear it's going to be there. I don't really have a lot of summer clothes to wear being pregnant... and I don't want to buy a bunch because I won't need them much longer. A couple pairs of shorts I might be able to fit into. Some tank tops. A couple dresses I might be able to squeeze into ;] I know I am going to have a great time. It will be a lot of fun hanging out with my family and just getting to relax for a bit without needing to worry about what I still need to do to get ready for this baby. Until I leave and when I get back it's going to be overtime getting things ready.

But for those 10 days... I will just get to lay back in the sun. People watch like crazy. Take some pictures. Read a couple books I hope. Get a tan :]And have some fun.

9-13 weeks.

After putting things off again and again... I am to the point where I know I need to step things up and move forward. My room is painted. My dad and I are going to finish it up today. Wipe the walls down, clean up the light, take all the junk out of the closet. And I will start moving all my stuff back over. Hanging up pictures, getting things put where they go. And then start painting the nursery.
There are also things outside of the house that I need to start working on. Just kinda getting things where they need to be. Spring Break is in a couple weeks and I would like to be in California with my family from Portland. But I think I am going to push myself to get a couple things off my heart first. I need to be ready for this baby... not just having the house ready, but having myself ready. And right now I think I need more work on my heart then on the bedrooms. I just have a lot of hard choices to make. A lot of forgiving to start and things I just need to put behind me and start over on.
So here is to the next couple weeks. That God pushes me through these hard times and I come out happy and stronger in the end.