Holding on and letting go.

Growing up I am realizing more and more that life will never be as easy as you hope. Or as simple as you were told. I am finding out that sometimes there is no easy or simple or un-hurtful way to do something. So I'm trying to figure out life still. And I'm going to live the way I should.

It's been forever.

And sometimes that's what I need. Time to not worry about other people picking my brain. Just sitting alone and reading a good book or watching a movie that makes me cry. But sometimes all I want to do is sit in the sun with a friend and drink some sweet tea. I want to laugh about how messed up things are and help with any problems that come up. I miss summer time way back when... when the only things that I was worried about was how much trouble I was going to get into at work the next morning when I looked at the clock and saw I only had an hour till I had to be there. Or the worry about my swim suit being wet from the lake when I want to go swimming again.

But here I sit. After having a good dinner that I cooked for just me. Watching a movie that I have wanted to see for awhile. I have my tea and a book waiting for when I want to read it again. And while I'm sitting here the only thing I want is to have someone here with me. Someone to laugh with and giggle about me crying over stupid movies. I want to hold a hand and smile baceuse I'm not alone.

It's funny how my heart can be feeling so many different things at once. And how sometimes I just can't figure out life. But at the same time... I know that I can't. I know that I just need to live and let things work out. So I'm done. From now on I'm going to just let life come and do what I can when it's time for me to take that step.

Yep. I don't know what else to say right now. But trust me... in a couple weeks I will be back to my normal self of writing what pepole need to hear. Kassy... I will get back to writing my book for you on here. Lol.

Making plans.

These past few weeks I have been thinking a lot about upcoming things. Things I need to help out with, things I want to do and things that are going to happen no matter what. So I have been testing myself and pulling through these rough times, because I know at the end of this season there will be a new one. And it will be beautiful and amazing.
I am ready for this new season. So I am waiting for the storm to calm so I can look out over calm waters and just take in the life I am meant for. This is my promise to hold people close, let things go and to live with my heart. This is the time where I am closing my eyes and listening to everything that is being told to me in the whispers of the trees. This is where life starts.