7 weeks left.

Life is crazy. Always. I'm starting to think that it will never slow down. That for the next 30 years it's going to be GO GO GO!!! So I have figured out that I am going to just take everything in the moment and breathe it in. I'm going to take lots of pictures, keep things that matter, throw things away that don't and love everyone around me with all my heart. 7 weeks and so much to do.

I have to get the nursery done in the next 3 weeks. And then move my mom in for a bit. And I have to get my room ready for Ryder to be in for a couple weeks. I kept putting things off thinking I would have enough time... but that's not going to happen. I have a lot to do and I will get it done before it's to late. I am doing really good on having everything I need for this little one. I only have a handful of things to pick up and I can wait a couple weeks to do that. So not to worried there.

Sean and I are going to baby classes and getting him ready for the whole labor, birth and newborn thing. I think he is a little more scared then he will let on. Maybe he just doesn't realize yet that this is happening soon. I think that once it starts he is going to be a little freaked out. But he is helping me with whatever I ask from him.

Life... The way it is.

I am working really hard right now to get life where I want it. I am throwing things away, giving things away. Trying to just cut back on everything I don't need. For awhile I was having a hard time because I wanted to keep everything that reminded me of my life before being a mom. But now I am starting to see that I want to keep some stuff... because they remind me of people and times that will always stay with me. But more then that, I want to start this new life. I want to find new things that make me happy and start making these new memories.

Last night I went and listened to an amazing lady talk about heaven. And about relationships. And on the way home I figured out what I want in life. I know where I want to be. And I know it's not going to happen overnight. I know it's going to take lots of time and work. But I'm willing to stick through it till I am where I am happy. So this morning I made myself get up and start going through things. Sometimes it's hard for me to do these kinda things. I am ready for a place of my own. To be living in a little two bedroom place. Settling in for this baby and just making the whole house mine. And I know that I will get there. Till then... I will do my best at making these two rooms as much mine as I can.