Selfish.

I'm being a little selfish right now. And I'm letting myself feel it because most of the time I don't really get time to think of myself. I'm very focused on being a good mom and move forward and all of that.
But tonight... I'm upset about the things I can't have right now. I would love to spend some time and money on me. To get my nails done, have a massage, get my hair cut. It would be great to have the extra money to do pictures of this little ones birth and then do a whole family session. But... All my money is gone pretty much right after it goes in the bank.

And I understand that is just how it works sometimes. I just feel like I have been working my butt off for so long but don't have a lot to show for it because I have no help right now. And I know that will change at some point. And I also know that tomorrow I will wake up and not care again about the things I can't do for myself.

Because when it really comes down to it... If I had the money I would go buy stuff for my babies instead. Because they are what make me happy at the end of each day.