Contractions, sleep and thoughts.

I know that maybe this whole sleep thing has to do with my body getting ready for a lot less of it. But right now... I hate the fact that the best sleep I get is durning nap time. I have the hardest time falling asleep at night. And staying asleep... Forget it. I know soon I will be up every few hours to hold my new baby on my chest and feed her. And I am really excited about that. Nighttime feedings were one of my favorite things with Ryder. But I could use the sleep right now.

Contractions... You would think after having a baby less then 2 years ago my body would not need to remember how to do the labor thing. However, I guess it does. I remember contractions with Ry. For days! Lol. These are a handful of hours. On and off. Maybe once a day. But I'm ready for the real thing. Work is getting hard, walking up stairs. All those things that seemed easy a week or two ago are now things I dread. But soon... I will have a whole new set of little problems to work with. I am however, excited about those :)

As for my thoughts. There is so much going on in not only my life, but the life of all my friends. Some days are a little harder to move forward with. I love them all ad I know the ones close to me understand where I am at and I couldn't be more thankful for them and their understanding. But it's still hard.
This is not where i imagined myself or my little family being. And I know that things take time and things need I be worked out... But I'm ready to get things settled so I can start living the life I want for my kids. So all I can do right now is push all those thoughts aside and make the best of the situation I am in.

2 weeks and 5 days till this little girl is due. The doctors would like me to carry late just so she has some extra time to gain weight. And if that's what she needs I know God will keep her safe in my belly. But He knows I am more then ready to meet her as soon as I can :)