Thankful and jealous.

I am very thankful that I can carry a baby full term. (not saying anything against moms who don't or can't) I'm thankful I can give my little ones as much time to grow and everything. I'm thankful that carrying full term means an easier labor and faster healing (as long as I stay healthy). But right now... I'm a little jealous.

I know that due dates are all estimated. That doctors can be certain of when a baby will be born. But the fact my my due date is anywhere between now and mid November makes it hard. And then you throw in the fact that ALL the girls I know who are pregnant are having babies 2-4 weeks early... I'm ready for my newborn snuggle time. I'm ready to meet this little girl. It's hard doing everyday alone while pregnant and chasing a 16 month old.

I know I shouldn't be jealous. And I should enjoy every moment alone with Ry I can get. And I do. I take advantage more then most people think. I go to the zoo, I do snuggle nap times... Sometimes I even wake him up at night just to get that extra time with him. But at the same time, I'm ready for this new little one to round out our family.

I know the day will be soon. Even if I wait another 4 weeks for her... She is worth every moment I can give her in her safe little home. So until she is ready... I will snuggle Ry extra, put my hands on my belly to pray, get things as ready as I can and just wait for her.