Out of place.

I feel so... Not apart of everything here. I feel left out. Like a burden. I feel like I need to be invited to do anything and I feel bad asking to join in on things. I am trying my hardest right now to figure things out and get out of here so everyone can have their normal life back. And I hate it here the longer I am here. Not because of anything that happens or anything anyone does. I just hate feeling this way.

I don't feel like I'm home. I don't feel needed here. It's not that I don't feel wanted, but I almost don't. I know this is hard on everyone. And that having us here costs more and brings up unexpected everything. But I just feel... Out of place. I'm ready to be able to visit sometimes and not feel stuck all the time.

I think I'm just to the end of my rope with everything all at once which makes things harder. I just wish I had someone helping me.