The things we do for love.

So as a lot of you know, right now I am in Portland helping out my Grandmother. She just had some surgery and for the first few days has needed help most of the time. Someone to give her drugs at the right time, the right amount. Someone to help clean her stitches and get her anything she needed. So I am here with my Aunt and her boyfriend helping out in anyway we can. So again, for those of you who know me... I'm not good with blood or any of that. So this has been hard. But I have gotten the strength to do what I need to so that she heals with no problems. And in this process I have amazed myself. I can handle a lot more then I thought. I don't give myself enough credit sometimes. And this has shown me that no matter what I go through in life, I can trust myself to pull through when I'm needed.

But not only do we push ourselves in ways we don't think possible for our family... but for anyone we love. I have put everything on the line before because I wanted to be there for someone that meant a lot to me. I have given up on dreams and pushed my life aside so that I could be there for a boy. For a friend. And I don't regret it. I have learned so much about who I am now because of everything I have done. I love where I am going and who I will become at the end of everything. I know what I will never do again and I know what will hurt me if I ever try again. And I love knowing that. I love knowing what I can do and what I still need to work on.

I guess the only thing I'm really saying is... don't underestimate what you can do when you have no choice or when someone you care deeply for asks for help. Because you will shock yourself with how you handle that part of life.