Love.

Love is a funny thing. You want it, after you get it you want more and when it hurts you... well, you swear you will never put yourself through that again. Sometimes it's easy, sometimes it's harder. But I think it's always worth it.

Right now, in the middle of my crazy life, I have found a guy who is always there for me. Through the easy parts and the parts that I don't know how I'm going to get through. He is strong, smart, funny, mature, spirit filled, loving, respectful, reliable, hard working and he pushes me to be better without even knowing it. He is standing by me and helping me everyday. I don't think I give him enough credit. He is growing into an amazing man, the kind of man that I have been looking for. And while he is growing, I am also growing up. So it's a good fit now. We can help each other and give each other space when needed. He never pushes but he is always asking if there is any way he can help me in the moments in time that I am so stressed that I am about to break. He reminds me to take a second, close my eyes and just let all the good wash over me.

We have been going through a hard time with family things, together. We both have different issues but they effect our relationship... which was difficult till just a few days ago. I think. I have come to realize that I can't try to fix this all on my own. It's not going to work that way. This is a relationship. It's sharing between two people about life and how to solve problems. It's not something that I can do without him. So there has been talk between him and I about where we are at. And there has been talk with my family about how I feel about him and how they need to accept him into the family with open arms.

Half of my family is already crazy about him. Telling me that I would be crazy to let him go. Because they can tell that this is how I am happy... with him. And that he is happy with me. The other half just hasn't had that time to get to know him. So my plans for the next month... get him there. Have him hang out with all those people that just seem iffy. And I know it's going to work out. Because how can you say no to love? You can't.

So this is for love. The crazy, head over heels, over the moon love. The kind that you can't wait for the next time you talk, the next time you see them, the next time you can hug them. This is for the love that starts out as so much more... this is for the love of a best friend that can't be beat because it's just what God made for your heart. This is for my love. This is to help start our life together. To make a family out of who we are and the people in our lives that have shaped us. This is to Mr. Sean Hernandez, because I'm fighting for him just as much as he is fighting for me. With my heart, soul, spirit and mind. I'm giving it all and I'm not giving up.