Crazy little thing called love.

Sometimes life throws you a curve ball. Something that just messes with all the plans you had set out in front of you. All tidy, organized and ready to take action at the right moment... then BOOOOM!! Your plans are shattered and you are looking around for the next step. Sometimes that happens when you are figuring out where to go to school, when to start a family or when you are going to fall in love. Yep... love.

We plan out in our heads what we long for. Those perfect days and endless nights. Slow motion greetings and the sad goodbyes we will all get from the one we end up with. I remember nights where every single detail was perfect, from the sounds to the smell of the grass to the way he kissed me. And those weren't the only moments I remember... I think back to holding hands, walking on the beach, laughing about stupid stuff and being friends. And that's when I realize... That's what I miss more then anything. I miss the friendship.

I was so busy with my plans that I started pushing him to be who I wanted and needed. And I started pushing myself to be what I thought I should be for him. All of a sudden... BOOOOM! Everything started falling apart. And I was looking around for what to do and who to blame. Now it's hitting me. It's not his fault. It's not my fault. It's just the way things go. I'm giving myself time to grow up. Find out who I really am before I try and fit myself with someone else.

All I'm saying is... sometimes love isn't enough. You need friendship, trust, respect, passion, understanding and love to get through anything. You need to feel like you have your best friend by your side each morning you wake up and every night when you go to bed. You know the saying, "If you love something let it go."? Because we need the freedom to be who we are in and out of relationships... the reason you fall in love with someone is because of who they are, right? Why should that ever change? It shouldn't.

My stand... learn who you are before you settle down. Even when everyone around you is getting married and having families, remember that you can still be out in the world doing what you have always wanted to do. Dream your dreams. Make a list of what you want to do in your life and start checking them off. Fall in love when you are ready and don't rush it. When you rush love you only end up with two broken hearts. Stay true to yourself.