A new look.

I'm taking a look at my life right now and the things I would like to change before this little one makes it's way into the world. I know that some people would tell me what to do or how to do certain things. But to me, it's about making myself happy so that my boy grows up knowing that it's not about money and "things" in life, it's about love and being happy with who you are.

So yes, I am not cursing. But I am still listening to rap music and watching rated R movies. I am not smoking or drinking, but I will go out with friends and have a drink. Just not into the whole party thing. I am writing more, drawing more, painting, crafting and doing music more. Because those are things that make me happy and stress a little bit less. I am just trying to figure out who I am and where I am going.

One thing that has not changed and won't is the fact that God is the biggest thing in my life. I took a break from the youth group because I have a lot going on and I needed to learn how to spend my time with God and not force it. The last couple months have been the hardest I have gone through in a long time, and I needed to let God work on my heart. This next weekend is Generation Unleashed and I will be going this year. I'm hoping that it helps me find the balance I need between my own relationship with God and the fact that His love is all about loving others. I'm looking for that little sign that He will be sending me.