Feeling like a mom.

This past week has been the hardest week so far. I don't know if it's because I'm so close that I just want labor to start so I can be holding Ryder or if it's just a stage. But this has felt like the longest week ever. I nested, I cleaned. I got tired of doing anything. I couldn't leave the house for two days. But then tonight... about an hour ago, I just hit this calm spot.

I'm still sore. Ryder is rolling around in my belly which is getting a little tight for him... but I'm not worried. I'm not stressed. I want to get up and pack my bag again, make sure everything is in order and ready to go. And then I just want to lay back and let him cook till he is done. I know making it to 40 weeks is the best thing for him. And I am hanging in there. And if he is late, I am okay with that. I don't know what it was, but this feeling just hit me.

And I'm loving it right now. I am feeling like a mom. Thinking about late nights, waking up to him crying or cooing. Feeling him in my arms. This little guy is such a blessing. And meeting him in this world is going to be amazing.

I can't wait for labor to start. I can't wait for the pain, for the pushing, for all the thoughts that will be going through my head. I can't wait for that rush when he finally greets the world. Being put into my arms all warm and covered in goo... Lol. I am looking forward to every single step from now till forever.

Sometimes I just sit here and think about the fact that I have a little boy in my belly, growing. God does such amazing things. I couldn't ask for anything more. This is life changing... the best way to change my life. The best way to really start my life.